Well it took a lot of napping and couchtime to build enough reserves to rock it on Friday night, but I’m told I pulled it off! I sing my heart out and savor every minute with the band and the audience. There were moments I felt short of breath, but for the most part I felt like my voice was strong, and most importantly we just had a blast. Old me would have loved downloading with the band, but faint me had to dash out right after the show. But was so revved up that even after a quiet couch hang with my Exeter girls (huge shout out to Katherine Post Calvert who when told she would be delayed in Austin asked to be detoured overnight to SF to come crash the gala!!!!!! Thank you Katherine!!!) I still couldn’t fall asleep. Today I finally paid the tired price and had a 12hr sleep and barely got out of pajamas. But that said it is just the best medicine I know. You probably get sick of me repeating that, but I can’t tell you how much I feel like my soul was set free in being able to sing with this band. IT has unleashed creativity, it forces me into the moment, and I swear it tingles through every cell. That is the magic and the medicine.
Today I was the lip balm and cookie making Mom in between rests. And yet in the morning I was so couch bound that I had to disappoint Will over his lax game. Cancer doesn’t respect real life even though it keeps chugging along. I’m racing through The Gene by the same author as Emperor of all Maladies. Totally fascinating. Also a mellow lovely escape one called The Silent Traveller in San Francisco by a Chinese writer who first visited when the fg Bridge was still new.
C and i are stealing a getaway to Napa as some dear friends have shared their guest house. A big help with our scheduling uncertainty, and even without wine it will be fun to experience that part of the Bay Area in spring. I am reminded so often that while I have eternal wanderlust that some of the world’s prime destinations are in our backyard.
Check Instagram and http://www.birdseedband.com for pics later in week and I will try to get some videos up from the show.
A few quotes to kick off your week from A Network for Grateful Living
Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.
MADAME MARIE CURIE
For many years, at great cost, I traveled through many countries, saw the high mountains, the oceans. The only things I did not see were the sparkling dewdrops in the grass just outside my door.
We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily difference we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.
MARION WRIGHT EDELMAN