You may Ben sick of hearing it, but nothing gets me through cancer more than music, and if you layer on kids and friends I think becomes power charged. We put the finishing tou he’s on our music video last night that we hope will come out in a few weeks. Such fun. Such joy. And 6 hours prior my head was spinning and I had to cancel lunch with a dear friend. Sometimes sleep is all it takes, but I try to listen to the warning calls.
But last night….good energy and all joy.
Last week was one hell of a week. I did 4 radiation sessions in my plastic fantastic claustrophobic alien mask and then 6 hours in the chemo infusion chair. I’m not asking for Pity for I spent most of Friday cracking myself up from whatever was in the drip and the fun of having 8-10 friends cycle through. That’s how you make chemo fun. Saturday I had good energy until I hit a wall in the evening which carries through SO as usual the mantra is one day at a time and lots of self forgiveness.
Im sorry for any lack of responsiveness, for my new flakiness. It doesn’t mean anything more than that I am overwhelmed. So please bear with me.
I’m reading The Book of Joy and continue to work towards view of death that isn’t laden with fear. I think I wrote recently that no matter when that time comes that the goal is to take my last breath with a smile knowing we have raised good kids, knowing that i will miss everyone so very much, but believing we will fall into each other’s orbits again. CraZy mYbe but works for me.
And for now LIvE LIvE LIVE!!!!!