The late afternoon sun is streaming in, the shadows of the wind waving tree dancing over me as I sink into the couch. And above is my view: a lovely painting from Carmel artist Stan Robbins which speaks to me. I have written extensively about my outstanding doctors, and many of you heard me speak about and sing with them on Saturday night at he event for UCSF which -THANK YOU all you generous souls- has so far raised over $1mm and may just creep to $1.1mm. The night surpassed all my expectations! The warmth of friends, family, community, delicious food, glowing light, sweet tunes, and passionate speeches made for a stellar event. I was humbled and honored to be part of it. As I have learned more over the years I have realized that UCSF is an investment in innovation. And my health is dependent on its breakthroughs.
I thank my lucky stars for my smart, funny, gorgeous, kind friends everyday.
I also want to highlight the wonderful healing work of the spunky and brilliant Marina McBrearty who my dear Tomoko and Erin introduced me to. Coupled with this amazing trial drug, Marina’s acupuncture is working magic. She reads the body like a map and seems to understand every poignant point and how to harness the healing power of the body. Even a non believer would be swayed by the sparks she incites. She is wise beyond words and put me immediately at ease. To me, supporting western with the best of eastern medicine is potent while also deeply calming for my body. Big fan. And it brings me some of the zen I miss from my yoga days.
Today has been a do very little day which my body was begging for after the busy weekend. The red heels were worth it but took their toll! After a blow out 40th birthday with friends on Friday, the weekend culminated in world class milkshakes at Fentons on Piedmont Ave in Oakland. My Dad remembers when the shakes cost $1.50 and my Grandpa used to tell us he enjoyed them for 10c! That was our special spot when he was alive. His rule was “Finish your milkshake and then you can order food”! I liked that rule. My brother’s Christmas present to me this year was experiences only: guitar lessons and a party at Fentons. Oh so good! Will Reed ate a BLT and a 4 scoop Sundae.
I’m excited to share that we finally have an official website for our band! Please check out http://www.birdseedband.com where I look a little better than I do in the Fentons hat. We hope to share our 2 new recordings in the next few weeks.
Life is a bit surreal right now. Sometimes it seems normal enough that I can’t believe that I have terminal cancer. I feel as good as I have in a year. Last week’s scan was stable!!!!! And my platelets were up to 142 after the Caribbean despite 4 weeks on the drug. I think we have found the right dose to stay the course. At times I feel a need to pack in as much as possible, fearful that the clock is racing. At times, I relish lazy days and minimal obligations. I want to teach my kids as much as I possibly can in this precious time and to leave a legacy in conservation and healthcare and education. I want to be a good friend and wife and sister and daughter. I’m ever hungry to learn and to experience new places.
With a bucket list trip with some dear friends (thank you C) to Amalfi, Paris, and Amsterdam I’m reading Paris in Winter. I will miss home, but I’m excited for the adventure.
you’re entirely bonkers. But I’ll tell you a secret. All the best people are. Lewis Carroll
Don’t ever save anything for a special occasion. Being alive is a special occasion
If the world is cold make it your business to build fires. Horace traubel
Everyday is an opportunity to make a new happy ending.
There are always flowers for hose who want to see them. Henri Matisse
You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. Cs Lewis
Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. Plato
We can complain because rose bushes have thorns or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses.
Life is an echo. What you send out comes back.
Be in love with you life. Every minute of it. Jack Kerouac.
What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? Robert Schiller
And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln.
You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith, and hope.
i just love all those with that I will sign off and be back soon. A few pretty pics to wrap up
P.s If there’s ever interest on weeks I have energy I’m game to take on speaking events to talk resilience and leadership and sales. And I’m having fun helping people cleanse their closets to find their best selves, to shop their closets and to style and shop strategically.